2 more..

I really, really thought April would be the end to a long pause in referrals.  The review has taken months and it seems it will now take another 2 1/2 months until we receive another update..I don't really know what to say except that we are so sad.  It's so hard to understand why it's so hard to bring our daughter home to us.  We can feel her calling us and I want nothing more than to pick her up and tell her that she is home.  I really hope this all makes sense someday as it's breaking our hearts.  I feel so helpless right now.  The only place I can go is to trust that there is a plan in all this and that if it's meant to happen it will...how else do I process it.  I do picture our daughter well cared for wherever she is and hoping this is harder on us than it is on her.

I've spent the morning channeling my negative energy into cleaning our house. I have a feeling it will never be this clean again.  I guess that's better than the other options I could have chosen...